Questioning Things?

Guilt, doubt, and second guessing

Sitting with emotions and quite spaces like this

are how we deal with them today.

In a crazy turn of events during year two of our full-time rving adventure, we have found ourselves dealing with something we never anticipated. 

Not the worries over the road conditions.  It has not been the pressure of constantly finding that next place to call home.  Not even the adjustments to the two of us living in 224 square feet of “home”. 

It is something far different and a thing that requires a lot of personal reflection, conversations, and trust in yourself and each other. 

This year we have been dealing with feelings of guilt and all the self-questioning that comes with it.

-        Should we have kept our house so our kids could come home during difficult times?

-        Should we be working more? Going back to that “hustle” mentality that helped us get ahead in the past?

-        Should we be living in this community or that community to assist family in life challenges?

With so much changing in our families, it is crazy how quickly you can be led to question all your decisions. Things that were once certain can become full of doubts and second guessing.

At times we have felt guilty about our travels and working much less than we ever have in our lives. Questioning our choice to challenge societal norms and pursue freedoms.  We have felt guilty about choosing happiness, travel, and exploring while risking additional future security.

Thankfully one of the greatest benefits of this lifestyle is control of your time. 

So, how we handle guilt is by giving ourselves time and space to sit in it. We have time for self-reflection and conversations about our core reasons for making these changes in the first place.  We can re-examine our “why” to see if it still holds true. 

Exploring the emotion, sharing it with each other, and working through it together, is such a change from how we used to handle those uncomfortable feelings.  Now we get to look for the hidden message, an exercise that has allowed us to really grow. 

I share this with you all, as a reminder, no life is a “perfect” and it’s not supposed to be.  However, it is our life and your life, and we each get to decide for ourselves how to live it. 

For us our strength comes from the processing of it all. At the end we agree the weight of regret would be much heavier than the questioning of guilt and would not provide the same opportunity to grow.

See you all up north soon!